So much time has been spent in the this beautiful world. Some of the experiences, places visited and people met have bought joy and happiness during my adventure. The different classes adding dimension to my family and creating new adventures throughout this land.

Over the 8 years I have dedicated time to grinding, trying to progress and exploring the vast wilderness. My character have done the hard yards through times when reaching level 51 seemed almost impossible and to have a billion dollars plus in the bank was an achievement to be proud of for adventures. Reaching +15 on gear was as hard as BS is now and the trials and tribulations that goes into it.

Slowly but surely the grind becomes long, the progression slow but the motivation remains high to make your character a competitor among greats. You grind, hit your level, get your mats, have your gear. Time now to progress.

Black spirit come to me. Black spirit, I have your will, I have your ingredients, together we will conquer the land.

Adventurer give me your items and together we will forge weapons of strength. Give your items to save the 200+ failings you need to start your enhancement on this beautiful TET blackstar weapon. ring or other high end item you wish to PEN. Give me your items to protect or else this beautiful TET weapon will not be anymore. Come enhance with me.

Black spirit here are my items, here is my faith, here is my loyalty, here is my effort, here is my pain, here I give myself to you.

Adventurer begin. Fail. Oh no adventurer, but it is ok you have protected the gear. Now continue, your weapon will be your saviour.....Hours later.

Adventurer what happened to your items, Adventurer what happened to your equipment. Adventurer where is your money, Adventurer where are your weapons.....HEHE

Black spirit, why! You promised, year after year. I will make this easier for you adventurer. All my years, my hard work, my money, my gear, my love, my faith. Oh black spirit why have you foresaken me.

Adventurer, we need some people not to achieve so that other can feel better when they see you still trying. You have been chosen, to sacrifce yourself at the alter so others can always feel better knowing they progress and they do not belong to the wrong 1 percent. For you adventurer you are in the 1 percent. The choice is now yours. You have no gear left, you have no faith, you have no will and your love has now been pushed into that dark place. What are you going to do? You had your chance at TET. You failed. Maybe you should just buy other peoples beautiful experience of enhancement now you know you will never see TET again HEHE.

But blackspirit, we have adventured, we have shared memories, we are all but one. I now have nothing, I have given you my life and all that it contained.

Adventurer. Through you I gain power, your loss is my gain.

Blackspirt, what am I to do, I can no longer grind where I was before, I can no longer compete. I have no money.

Adventurer. You should have gone to the pearl shop. I will allow you to progress adventurer. But unless you visit my pearl shop you will be stuck as the 1 percent.

This is a long winded way for me to say that the enhancing for me over the years has been the worst experience I personally have had in a game. Watching so many progress and some in short periods of time has been great but also leaves that bitter taste in your mouth. Over the years I have watched gear go up and down, up and down and never being able to get that PEN other then the easy methods presented by BDO. As far as the proper weapons, accessories etc for me nothing has popped and the feeling for me is that I will always have to hit the cap of failed attempts.

I have left a few times over the years as it became far to mentally challenging to only fail at high end items and watch as all the failures burn every item you have. and seeing your stacks burn on low level success to try and get it to TET again., I end up with TET weapons all the way back to PRI with multiple failures at 80+ percent to go to DUO,, all my resources gone and my character now even further behind my fellow players. Stuck at TET for ages knowing your gear is going to blow up and BDO wanting us to enhance, buy outfits. Somes players including me are so scared of the backward progression that BDO insists on and today for me for what seems like the millionth time, I am lower then i was 2 years ago.

People will always say that is RNG, just buy and all the other standard comments, then over blow their experience with "it took me xxxx attempts, you have to put in the work"

This game unfortunately will allow some people to truely experience what it has to offer, then it allows the average player to experience nearly all, but then there will be the 1 percent that no matter what effort they put in it will not be good enough and they will never get to see certain parts of the game. I have fallen into this catagory. With so many attempts over the years to achieve high end gear to only have to buy it in the end or have it given to me. I dont mind failing, its just knowing that there is a progression cieling that is too expensive for me and the enchanting way has never gained me anything. A constant backwards progression in seconds and thousands of hours to get back there.

There is no joy in only running around in circles for thousands of hours to buy a piece knowing it is your only choice. I want to enhance, I want that high of it hitting PEN. But like some others it is only a negitive, resulting in a backwards progression. BDO has fostered a horrible enviroment for me progression wise. I am left with so few options.

Be content with never progressing, constantly fight to progress to the same level you were pre failure or run around in circle for countless hours. I dont want to stagnate, I dont want to constantly fight to get back to the same level (at this point I can not even get back to the same level of TET without buying again, so I am actually further behind and cant even attempt what i was aiming for) and I dont want to have a whole game world reduced down to a tiny circle for thousands of hours. I wanted to experience BDO, the highs and the lows. If I can so often fail at PRI when percentage wise It should succeed then I would imagine the flip should be the same when the percentage is high to fail. But no, I will fail far more at a high percentage then I will succeed at a low percentage. Say what you will but I am not going into these attempts with nothing stacks. As soon as stacks start getting decent they always pop a level when Im looking to fail.

After this many hours in the game to acheive no true high points, no RNG, no high level enhancements and to be low blowed on every occassion of RNG, my life in BDO I feel is now over. I am halfway through destroying all my gear to maybe hit that one pen before I wave good bye or to maybe I just want that PEN to pop so when i say goodbye I can say goodbye knowing that at least I got something from the game and not say goodbye as a poor adventurer that over the 8 years not been able to even achieve a few of the highs that so many others talk about., low level gear that is worse then PEN Tuvala.

I am sorry that this has turned into a rant but today has truely been a sad day for me. This game has finally crushed my inner soul, a place I came to get away from a sometimes dark world outside, to meet wonderful people, to enjoy a game world that is so beautiful. At different stages BDO has low blowed me to the point of quit but as usual the saltiness went and I returned to give things another shot.

Today truely felt differnt as I watched the 2 TETS go back to PRI and then start failing at PRI. Something switched, it truely felt like this game broke the last of me not just in a gaming sense but it broke me. To know I have to buy the PEN now as I will not be able to get to TET to reattempt is a hill to big to climb as is buying PEN. I cannot get up that hill when BDO is pushing and holding me down. As I am a tiny percentage it does not matter to BDO that this has truely been a negative impact on my life. For those that choose to mock or shame me for sharing my experience, all I can say that is it is expected and only re-enforces the negitives in which the game has bought into my world.

I am truley glad to have seen so many people experience the highs the game has to offer, to see them succeed and attain the things in which they worked for. To hear the excitement in voices when enhancing and finally getting that piece. Sadly I, as with a minority of others, will never get to experience the game as it is meant to be experienced. As of today I no longer have the piece as was so hoping to get that 1 good experience with and the distance to come back is far to great.

To all I wish best of luck in your adventures and if you have one of those lucky enough to have had the highs I salute you. To those that have suffered the wrath of RNG and will never get to experience the game as others do. I feel for you. Don't let it eat you as it has done me. My life  journey will now end, My BDO journey will end with it. Not what i meant to say.

It should be My life journey will now end with my BDO journey ending with it failed. Sorry read it back sounded bad. It was meaning to say that eventually when my journey ends it will include the story of my BDO journey ending in failure.

Peace.

Serious question....

How can you have over 29,000 hours when your highest level is 62 out of 22 characters, where most are under level 60 and your lifeskills aren't that high?

You did make your account in 2016, which is great but I have a hard time believing you played the game this long without actually playing the game.

What did you try to enhance to PEN that failed and went back to PRI? Sorry but this thread is very sus

Well, i've spent 36k hours in bdo, at least my steam told me. I don't have a character above 62 too, why should i bother?

Is that even possible? With all the XP events not having a character above 63 in that time sounds insane. I hit 63 from 62 on a tagged character during an XP event grinding only like 15-20 hours. 

It is a huge red flag waving saying "I don't actually play the game."

I have 480 days play time and not one level 63. I have spent the last several years on sea content not grinding, so it is possible to play this game and not reach 63, lol. There are sooo many ways to play bdo.

Addiction is a terrible thing.

Meanwhile here i am with a 762 GS having bought every single piece of gear i ever had in this game. Pretty sure i wouldn't have felt more satisfied had i enhanced it myself, i mean after all none of it requires skill, it's just pure luck. But i don't have a gambling addiction issue. Instead i just gather my money until I have enough to buy the thing OR until it becomes buyable (obviously still waiting on Pen debo rings to start selling, i'm in no hurry). And when i finally buy it, i feel happy, accomplished, satisfied, i have no toxic relationships with bdo. I have NEVER EVER lost progress in this game. Ever. In all my 54 757 steam hours I have only ever moved forward. I dont know what it is to waste silver or hours of grind in BDO.

I have little sympathy for the people who quit over bad luck because there's a simple fix to it and you refuse to use it just so you can get your little name on gear like it matters.

EDIT: ACtually i lie, i have lost silver and hence progress, I just remembered. I've kept tab of all the times i was sunk with a barter load in the cargo hold. And so I have lost close to 400 millions in this game. Terrible. I mean it's like... it's like 20 minutes of grind or something.

Did sea content for most of the time as well.
Been ginding Elvia Giants for a lil over a year and only 30% into 62. Typically end up with 40k trash loot.
1k exp event now, and after a week of grinding 2 hours a day, only went up 2%....Ur smoking rocks.

Last 4 years iv had ZERO interest in going past 62...Zero, so it makes since.

You didn't spend 29k playing BDO, you left the launcher open the majority of the time while steam was on, which counted towards actually play time. That's quite different. If you did play sea content you would be much higher as well with that amount of time, in fact, you would be guru 50 if that was "most of what you were doing".

The better way to see how much play time you have is to go in-game and press "P" on your character and hover over the play time (under weight).

Also, how are you only gaining 2% in 2 hours at level 62? Are you really not using any XP buffs at all? Your scrolls should be at minimum 2000% but more optimally over 3k during the 1k event. I'm asking these questions because I feel like you're complaining about BDO while also not understanding how to play BDO.

My complaints with BDO, arent about PVE progression what so ever. Mine are due to the lack of PK focused progression.
But thats a different topic.

Gearwise, im happy with how my time spent has tunred out.

I am past 49700 hours in BDO, played since day -2. 2/3 of my characters are level 62, the rest 61, one is 73% towards 63. How ? I don't grind. But: I am almost done with the 77777 quests quest, I have 4 Carracks, two of them blue geared, the other two in the works and a Panokseon too. I have a character of every single class. There are many ways to play BDO indeed. Of course there's also a big portion of AFK on the dummies or leveling horses when I'm at work or sleeping, or simply doing something else.